So maybe, some new year resolutions?

Tomorrow after work, I will move my ass off from the plant straight to the airport, and then to Boston to spent my birthday.... Yet another state down, always in time for my "USA command and conquer" plan. =) haha. And before I have the time to breathe, I will move my ass off to New York for countdown. So maybe, I shall have some new year resolutions here first, before I forget about this "every year must do thing" totally...

Xmas was great. This year was great. It is a year of growing up I guess. I became financial independent. I became less tempermental (I feel), and I started to appreciate people more... My parents, my brother, my sister, my friends, and my sweet little cutie Bryce. If I have to complain, my only complaint this year is about work. If only work can be more smooth sailing, I will be a even happier man... And my only regret is missing my best friend's wedding...

2011. What will there be for me in 2011?

1. Love?

My love life is of an empty storybook again this year. lol. I'm quite sure next year will be the same again. I start to question myself... I am single all these years is it because I'm scare of commitment or is it because I don't want to accept my true identity? The happy me, the real me... So this year instead of wishing for true love, I shall hope that I will embark onto the journey of identifying my true self. I'm not gay if u guys are still guessing what I'm trying to mean here. =)

2. Work

Next year second half will be a challenge, I will be shifting department as part of my USA stint. And when september ends, I will be back in Singapore to start afresh again. New people, new culture, new environment, I hope to learnt something more out of it.

3. Being a grown-up-kid

Seeing my folks getting older in front of the computer screen when we skyped made my heart ached a little. When I'm back I shall do my best to give them all I can offer... =) There are plans of the whole family going to Taiwan, and Im so looking forward to it. Or maybe I will bring them to China before I start work in the Singapore plant. We shall see how it goes..

That's should be all about it... =) Shall keep it this short and simple. (if not new year resolutions will just be "resolutions".)

Small talks

Pissed. Some comments are not appreciated.
Sometimes when one gives a two cents comment, it might be more then just a comment.
It might be hurtful...
No, more like irritating.

I dislike uncooperative individuals, with comments that doesn't make sense.
When everyone agree with something, it doesn't make sense to me not to agree with it.
If one really have so many suggestions and ideas and two cents worth of comments,
save it for the rainy days. Don't spoilt my day with it.

Hate planning things for the team to celebrate a homely event, only to receive two cents worth of comments from an uncooperative individual. And this kind uncooperative individuals tend to complicate things to suit their own needs, which makes me feel so unappreciated. If your grandmother cooks "tangyuan" only on the following weekend, then you go ahead have yours on sat. I will have mine today (read: Wednesday), with my other fellow Singaporeans and Malaysians.

In the past I choose to change the plan to suit the needs for this kind of poeple, but now I choose to fuck it. They can jolly well dont join, cause it doesn't really matter to me.

really.

Period.

IM DONE WITH USA

I miss home alot this week. So much until I called my dad and told him "i'm done with USA".
Oh yeah, he laughed. Like so used to his spolit kid's style.

I dunno is it post-travelling syndrome I'm facing from the trip to the west, or a pre-travelling syndrome before my trip to Boston and countdowning in NYC. Damn! Sounds fun, but it doesn't seems to appeal to me anymore.

Then it might be because of the sun, cause THERE IS NO SUN. Night begins at 1630 each day, and I'm so missing the swimming sessions with Jun. Even just shopping in Orchard buying nothing is great. Which by the way, shopping in Washington DC is not as fun as shopping in Orchard. Cause I'm shopping alone. No shopping companions. No shopping buddies. My housemates are simply too man to shop... And there is only five other guys fyi.

Then I think it might be work. WORK SUCKS! Nuff said.

Then again, maybe I miss baby Bryce, for him just being him is too cute to resist. I want to give him a manboy hug! U know those little hugs dads/uncles usually do with their sons/nephews. Damn I miss him.

Then maybe cause I dont have social life here. I do click with some of the STRATS (most actually), but seeing 19 faces everyday for 6-9months can be not so fun anymore. I miss faces. The chubby one. The cute one. The black one. The skinny one. The Slut, not my bitch. too many of them. ...

Then again, I will be sogging by ass tomorrow. SO I SHALL GO SLEEP NOW.

Period.

Amphetamine

Ampetamine.

A drug, defines as a central nervous system stimulant that increases energy and decreases appetite, used to treat narcolepsy and some forms of depression.



Amphetamine movie got me thinking.

My past. The present. My future.

Who am I? What am I? Where am I?



I used to be in a stage of depression. Depressed.

Depressed with anything. Depressed with everything.

Love. Career. Life.



I'm still in a stage of confusion.

My true self. My true identity.

Am I that daring to accept myself?



I'm happy for some of my friends.

For who they are, whom they are, what they are.

They are at a stage that I will never be there.



I am too much of a contradicting individual.

Too many worries, too many troubles.

And I don't want to be sorry to people around me.



So I just remain in my cage.



On day, I will be reborn.

I'll be living away from the past.

I'll living happily in the present.

I'll