Me, Myself and Sean Tay

And so today, I went to D.C. by myself for the first time. It was awesome other then the fact that the wind almost blew my tote bag off (and I'm not exaggerating!). I definitely have a good personal time with myself. You know, it is one of those days that I just want to be with myself, not unhappy nor emo, just wanna be---my---self. =)

Anyhow, I drove the car to Shady Grove to take the metro. There's no way I'm going to park in D.C. since I have no one to share the parking fees! Haha.

The distance to D.C. from Shady Grove is bout half an hour. I love period like this, whereby I can sit on the train, read a book and look at the different kinds of people around me and their actions. Like how the little boy kissed his mum just now (awwww, so sweeet), like a bunch of schoolgirls bitching about the hot guys that entered and left the train at different stations.

Today my main focus is the Dupont Circle neighbourhood. A nice and trendy neighbourhood with sensitive new age guys, metrosexuals, lesbians, cool girls, gays, blah blah blah. I had my brekkie/lunch at Love Cafe, one of those bakeries recommended in Oprah's show. I tried the famous Hat Trick's Cake. It was not bad, but it wasn't like Ooooooorgasmic!

Anyway, I manage to sit in the cafe for three hours by reading some free D.C. magazines, people watching, and trying to finish my "Eat, Pray, Love" storybook which I'm still at the "Italy" chapters over the last three months. The people who entered the cafe are usually trendy young people, e.g.s smart looking ladies, stylish boys, hot lesbians, cute gays. It's definitely a hot place for people watching.

An interesting advertisment. I like the beers and the vibrance of the rainbow colours. Who says gay magazine need to be of nudes boys and babes?

I managed to know a new friend through the storybook I was reading. Haha, and in the end we sat down together and talked for another hour about the story and the film. I left about 4pm to visit the famous whole food market.

I love American supermarkets more then our local ones. Their food selection is always great, and the items usually looks freshier and more appetizing. They even have their own salad bar. I grabbed some home too, planning to eat for lunch on Sunday.

But why not eat it fresh???!!! Haha, cause I have reserved my stomach for my long-time-craving that could only be found in Chinatown!

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My Char Siew + roasted duck rice. OMG OMG OMG! It was sooooooo good!
(And the waiter thought I was a hongkonger, haha).

After the fulfilling dinner, my stomach was so bloated that I decided to have a short walk for digestion. Hahaha, and so I found an excuse to walk to the shopping district near Chinatown. I spent some quality times in H&M, Zara, Forever 21.

After spending a significant amount of time for digestion in the boutiques, I found myself in a yogurt ice cream shop munching on the delicous make-you-fat-but-you-still-will-eat frozen yogurt. Yummy! I tried the peach and strawberry flavours this time round, but I still prefer the orignal flavor.

I ended the day by taking the metro from metro center to Shady grove... That's it! That's my sat.=) So dread the arrival of monday, damn it.

Excited!!!!

Oh yeah! Winter is ending, and I'm getting so so so so so excited!!!! Snow is nice but winter is depressing. It is so not my season. I'm more then happy now to say bye bye to Winter, and welcome Spring. She's my lady. Have a rough guide for spring. I'm going to catch the National Cherry Blossom Festival D.C. in March, down to NYC for a weekend to catch Wicked, probably another or two weekend self drive trips to somewhere... =) Hahah, and also not forgetting THE EXTREME MARCH TRIP, which is set. Oh yeah rock it on baby!

I'm going to freeze myself half-dead in Alaska for four days, and then bring my half dead body to Hawaii to get a real burnt from the lava of Volcano Nation Park! Sounds crazy I know, but this sentence could sound nicer if I say "I'm going to find the magical northern light in Alaska, and bring my spiritual, replenished soul to find the memories of pearl habour (and Josh Hartnett opps) in Hawaii.

No! Don't judge me. I did this to save money via multi city airfare... And since these two places are "in my must-go list" before I end this 18 months, I might as well... =) I reckon I will have problem figuring out how to pack my -30C down jacket and beach hat, shades and surf shorts at the same time.

I will figure out. =)

Time to call home.

周末

这周末过得很充实，也很孤独。

星期五， 想说不如约约室友去吃顿泰国料理，然后喝喝啤酒。
结果他两佬决定在家吃 Indo Mee。
独自一人的我不想 friday night 如此可悲，
去了Sports bar 吃美国汉堡，也看了一场ice hockey。
凌晨看了Adam Sandler 和 Jennifer Aniston 主演的 Just Go With It.
不错看哦！

喜欢星期六。

受不了Frederick乡村生活的我，
约了一位STRATS好友去了Washington DC。
好久没搭public transport 的我们故意把车停在shady grove,
然后搭metro到Washington DC去。
You might think I'm a fool,
但当你去想想我这日子看的羊和牛比我看的人多，
你就会理解我为什么会这样怀念人群了。
我们去了Chinatown 吃云吞面，
到了Hirshhorn Museum 假装artistic，
吃了著名的Red Velvet cupcakes，
逛了H&M, FOREVER 21, Zara。　　　
晚上我们回到了Rockville　吃了些台湾小吃，
喝了一杯“快乐泡泡茶”才回家。
超好吃的！又有漂亮的美媚看！=)

星期天的我特别起的早，　
洗了两个礼拜没洗的laundry。
现在的我独自一人坐在Baltimore Coffee Cafe里，
喝了杯Cafe Mocha，吃了块bagel，
看着人来人往的人潮，写着这个blog entry。
　
冬天的太阳似乎暖和了这间咖啡厅，
听着93.3的我，觉得这早晨的天空是美丽的。

希望这漂亮的心情能延续到蓝蓝的星期一。

累了

累了。
不知从何时开始，我累了。
好像失去原来的那股推动力，常常工作时提不起劲。
只想回到“那个冷冷的家”，躲在被窝里，什么有也不做。

适应。
为了适应这环境，我将自己给改变了；
变得有时还挺讨厌这样的自己。
难道是我宁愿向他们低头了吗？难道是我已失去自己的尊严了吗？

郁闷。
有人说我的心情好比天气， 偶尔刮风，偶尔阳光普照。
不知道我是否本来就有我妈所说的“双重个性”，
还是原本的我根本就不快乐，只是带着“开心面具”与人沟通罢了。

逃避。
也许我正在逃避，才会不开心。
逃避面对自己的真实情感，内心和未来的路。
我也想找会内心的满足感，可是常用“无数可救”来覆盖这一份空虚。

爱情。
我想我是个爱情主义者。
我好渴望爱情，但更害怕失去。
就因害怕失去，就更不敢去爱了。

相信。
我也相信属于我的爱情就在那不远处。
幸福将要来临了。
但我能过得了自己这关，轰轰烈烈的去爱吗？

我相信总有一天我会勇于面对这一切，直到我知道自己已经过关了 。。。

S is for Sean Tay, Stomach flu and Skiing

After a series of *pukes* and *pooooOoOooooOO*, I decided to stop eating for two days. =( hahaha. I tried to save myself by drinking expensive proactive drinks in replacement of yakult, and I ate a series of western charcoal pills, but angmoh drugs never seems to work on me... I thought I will be dying in a foreign land, in a lonely and pathetic manner.

But miracle happened(!!!) after I took a tube of "bao ji wan" from Nurul Sayang. Whahahahaha, I still prefer my chinese-not-so-regulated-cGMP medication afterall. Tell me about it! (I worked in a cGMP environment!)

And so I didn't die from stomach flu nor after the ski trip with the girls with my stomach flu on sat. Haha, it was fun, but tiring at the same time. Here's us, the WARRIORS!

Haha, no pics with the true warrior aka Cindy jie jie though. She saved me when I was stuck at some ski sites, crying for mama and papa, and with a missing left ski. Hahaha, yes, yours truly fall down the "mountain", with my left ski still stuck on top of the slope. And I can't go back to the top of the slope to grab it as it was too steep and slipperly. In the end I was stuck there for 10mins until Cindy heard my "crying voice", came over to me, pushed down my ski, jumped down the slope, helped me wear my ski, and guided me down. whahaha.

Haha, it's kind of funny to think about it now. LoL. But skiing is fun fun fun!

A HAPPY DAY

Isn't it awesome when two of your favorite stars stand together and have a photo together?

Haha, I hope I don't sound like some crazy fans from some hardcore fan club. Just feel that when 帅哥美女stand together, the image 是赏心悦目的。

Done with a project at work. Finally time for me to take a break and have a good rest. =) No plans for the weekend YET, shall think about what to do... Winter seems to make things become slower and I just feel like sleeping everyday. Haha. I miss the sun, and having a good dip in the pool. =( Have plans to go Yoga classes next week, hopefully it will be fun, and make the winter less pathetic. Oh skiing! I shall go skiing soooooN! whahahah.

Today, seeing one of the fellow strats eat chicken rice makes me feel like eating chicken rice too. So yes, yours truly, who never cooks in his life before he came to USA (besides maggie mee), is going to try the challenging HAINANESE CHICKEN RICE. And here's the result:

TATA!

Looks good right? Okay, it looked better then it tasted actually. whahahahhaa. The chicken tasted pretty decent, but the rice need some more seasoning and salt. Well, not bad for first attempt I guess. =P Will do a better one next time round!

《爱情和约》

昨晚朋友提到了她的第一部偶像剧，《爱情和约》。
那也是我的第一部偶像剧，一部你推荐的连续剧。
一部有你的“泪水”，也有我的“笑声”的爱情大悲剧。

我们之间，就像剧情一样，没有完美的结局。
但戏里的Ah Ken 似乎比我幸福多了。
变成植物人的小风依然在他的身边，
他们的爱情是永恒的。

你和我呢？
你健健康康的站在我面前，
但却属于那个“他”的。
《關於我們之間的事》也结束了。

结束了好久好久。。。

现在的我们依然是朋友，
Facebook 般的友谊 （可笑吧！）。
几年了，没有你的消息，没有你的讯息。
却从facebook看到你是快快乐乐的，我也感到欣慰。

今天听着張震嶽在《爱情和约》里唱的插曲，
就让我再一次想你吧，想着《關於我們之間的事》。。。

现在的我们变了。。。
现在的你好幸福。。。
现在的我比在离开你的那时侯快乐。。。

当張震嶽唱完这首歌后，
我们的这张《爱情和约》就真正的结束了。

或则是说我终于决定把这张过期的《爱情和约》从“可悲”的纪念盒拿出来，
放进“美好回忆”的纸盒里了。

此时此刻就让我好好的陶醉在回忆里吧。。。

I want to be crazier than you, but I can't

once, I was hopeful, thought we were one.
Life, less than perfect, finally begun.
But, now i wonder, are we undone?
i wanna treasure you in death as well as life
I wanna cut you with my love and with my knife
but can i live as your tormentor and your wife
when i am crazier than you
i'm crazier than you
and nothing up til now has proved me wrong
i'm crazier than you
that's just the overview
so get on board or simply move along

I'm not impulsive
(and yet i truly love you)
I'm not deranged
(i'd never ask that of you)
but in this moment
I feel I've changed.
I wanna climb Mt. Everest go to Mozambique
i wanna be impulsive want to be unique
can you believe i mean it when you hear me shriek
I'm crazier than you
I'm crazier than you
and now i'll prove to you exactly how
i'm crazier than you
I'll do what you can do
from here on in i give my solemn vow

pluck the arrow from its quiver,
hold it in your hand be brave.
Pierce the apple not the liver
or we're dancing on my grave.
Place it in the bow and steady,
Can't you shoot that thing already!
I wanna demonstrate that fear is my ideal
(girl believe me fear is your ideal)
Cause in the moment that you're frightened life is real
(then my life must be real real!)
and in a flash when i release and seal the deal

I'm crazier than you
I'm crazier than you
and nothing hurts me when i hear you say
I'm crazier than you
psychotically into
and that is all i need to face the day
i'm crazier than you
i'm crazier than you
and live or die i'll let you have control
I'm crazier than you
so say you love me too
from here on in you're singing to my soul
my soul.



Im still trapped in the world of Wednesday and Lucas from Addam's family.
I love this song. I love "One normal night".
I'm crazier than you, I'm crazier than you.
But where are you? Where are you?

I sink into the bottom of the ocean.
Cause I know the ugly truth.
I can't be that crazy, crazier than you.

I measure my own heartbeat.
I measure my own sexuality.
I can't be that crazy, crazier than you.

I want to be crazier than you, but i can't...
I don't know who am I.
I don't even know what am I.